
Typically, Sunday nowadays, since I don’t have any posts scheduled and had to restart my current read twice since I didn’t pay attention to what it was reading to me. I listened to most of the new radar playlist on Spotify, but nothing stood out to me from this week’s, so for this post, I will use an old favourite of mine, Standing With You by Guy Sebastian. Listening to it after a few years, the lyrics had a different meaning to me.
When I was in school, I had a few close friends; as a matter of fact, but we barely met outside of school, and when they changed my class in primary school, they didn’t speak to me again. In secondary school, my best friend became my bully, which was hell since she knew what hurt me the most. That situation made me bottle up a lot of stuff because every time I trusted anyone, it felt like it would backfire, causing trust issues as an adult. I don’t enjoy talking about this, and to a point, it feels dumb, but I know I’m not the only one dealing with this, and knowing you aren’t alone is the first step of healing.
Standing With You Lyrics:
The more I tell you you can do this
The more you tell yourself you’re useless
Any advice right now is fruitless
You’re somewhere only you can go
I won’t pretend to know, so
Instead of telling you you’ll be alright
I’m just gon’ be that someone by your side
Yeah let me be that distant satellite
A constant in the sky
‘Cause I’m standing with you tonight
Yeah I will be that voice in your ear
Quietly destroying your fear
You won’t even know that I’m here
But I’m standing with you tonight
Oh I will be the pill for your pain
Until the clouds have run out of rain
Close enough but just out of sight
I’m standing with you tonight
Your head is full and yet it’s hollow
Don’t even think about tomorrow
So if you let me I will follow
Oh if you’re gonna go
At least you’re gonna know
Instead of telling you you’ll be alright
I’m just gon’ be that someone by your side
Oh let me be that distant satellite
A constant in the sky
I’m standing with you tonight
Yeah I will be that voice in your ear
Quietly destroying your fear
You won’t even know that I’m here
But I’m standing with you tonight
Oh I will be the pill for your pain
Until the clouds have run out of rain
Close enough but just out of sight
I’m standing with you
I know I may not say the right thing
Let me tell you one thing
Yeah ’cause there is one thing
You’re wrong about
This world would not be a better place
I don’t wanna lose you now
Yeah I will be that voice in your ear
Quietly destroying your fear
Oh you won’t even know that I’m here
I’m standing with you tonight
Oh I will be the pill for your pain
Until the clouds have run out of rain
Close enough but just out of sight
I’m standing with you tonight
Oh tonight
I’m standing with you tonight
I’m standing with you tonight
Dear Friend:
The more I try to get close
To the friend I used to know
Like we used to be
The more you throw rocks
In the shape of words
That changed their tone
Faster than the speed of sound
Years passed, and I wonder
If you ever think of me
Alex
I’m sorry you had that experience. I just turned 51 and the bully I had in middle school still comes back to haunt me in my mind to this day. It’s a terrible experience, especially when (former) friends are involved.
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Bullies live rent free in our heads with the havoc they create with devastation and scars we carry long after….
On the flip side, I wonder if the friend turned bully that weaponized info and past bond, if is happy or facing being bullies now??
I send you sooo much love and healing your way dear Alex.
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