As you know, I listen to the new release radar list on Spotify every week. To be honest, I don’t always listen to the whole playlist, but this week I did, mainly because my hands hurt and I needed to take breaks from typing. It might be just my opinion, but most of the songs on the list seem to be about self-discovery and personal journeys. Something happened that I didn’t tell anyone, but then again, if you don’t explore what is causing the pain, you will have a hard time healing. Around April, I was talking to strangers, as I typically do. For whatever reason, I enjoy learning about people’s lives, and in the past, I’ve met some incredible individuals like that.
Where I met this guy, after talking for hours, he added me on Snapchat and told me that he was in a relationship. I felt a connection with him and told him the next day. After talking for weeks, I felt comfortable sharing some personal stuff I don’t just share with anybody. Last week, I thought that it was weird that I hadn’t heard from him, so I went to look and he wasn’t there. When stuff like this happens, I wonder a few things: Was it something I did or said that drove them away? Was it something in their life, and are they safe?
Questions I don’t know and might never know the answers to. It’s something that causes me anxiety, and I won’t lie, I felt worthless for a few days. Given how I was feeling when I heard Lewis Capaldi’s new release Survive, I teared up. It addresses mental health and the pursuit of a fulfilling life. It has beautiful lyrics that people from different backgrounds can relate to.
Survive by Lewis Capaldi Lyrics:
ow long ’til it feels like the wounds finally starting to heal
How long ’til it feels like I’m more than a spoke in a wheel
Most nights I feel that I’m not enough
I’ve had my share of Monday mornings where can’t get up
When hope is lost and I come undone
I swear to God I survive
If it kills me to
I’ma get up and try
If it’s the last thing I do
I still got something to give
Oh, it hurts some times
I’m gonna get up and live
Until the day that I die
I swear to God I survive
I swear to God that I survive
How long ’til you know that
How far will you go to get back to he place you belong?
Most nights I feel that I’m not enough
But I refuse to spend my best years rollin’ in the sun
So when hope is lost and I come undone
I swear to God I survive
If it kills me to
I’ma get up and try
If it’s the last thing I do
I still got something to give
Oh, it hurts some times
I’m gonna get up and live
Until the day that I die
I swear to God I survive
I swear to God I survive
I swear to God I survive
If it kills me to
I’ma get up and try
If it’s the last thing I do
I still got something to give
Oh, it hurts some times
I’m gonna get up and live
Until the day that I die
I swear to God I survive
Real or Fiction:
It feels too real
To the point, I thought it was fiction
Things that never get to live
Because you saw the full picture
And you still stayed
Until you had to run
Not knowing if you will return
Where there was a connection
Alex
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