So, this post might break me or make me just because it’s something that I passed from this week, and no one else knows outside of the person I chatted with. Well, in reality, two things happened: I was invited to be on TV as an activist, but one of the topics being discussed can be a trigger to me, and I really tried to explain that to the TV person this, but they didn’t get what I was trying to say and going into a deeper conversation would cause me guilt I don’t want to deal with so I’m guessing it will stay unanswered.
The second one is pretty sensitive to me for some reason, so while I listen to a trans romance, I will tell you more about me. I’m the type who will let you know if I connect with you sometimes on the first day of knowing you; most people I know would say that’s too rushed, and I agree. This time around, I waited weeks for one simple reason: I didn’t want to get attracted to this person, so I waited weeks, hoping it would go away, but as you can guess, it didn’t, so I told them how I feel and as I thought it was one-sided. So, when I heard the song Smalltown by Thomas Jenssen. The lyrics are about a person who lives in a smalltown where they can be themselves, which is sadly pretty relatable to my own story.
Smalltown Lyrics
In a small town, where dreams die
Lived a boy with big ambitions
Through the struggles, and hurdles
had to rebuild his own vision
Said he’d never make it far,
But he was bound to prove them wrong
While everything comes at a cost
let me be the one to tell you
Kill the lights in the room, you’re shining
There is hope in the darkest times
If I get to, I will tell you
You don’t need to be afraid to
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
You were hiding, at the school dance
No one knew if you were straight
And they asked you, and teased you
couldn’t find the words to say
No one thought you’d make it far,
But you were bound to prove them wrong
While everything came at a cost
let me be the one to tell you
Kill the lights in the room, you’re shining
There is hope in the darkest times
If I get to, I will tell you
You don’t need to be afraid to
Kill the lights in the room, you’re shining
There is hope in the darkest time and
If I get to, I will tell you
You don’t need to be afraid to
All alone, feeling down
But you better know you’re
You’re the star you’re meant to be
Ooh
Kill the lights in the room, you’re shining
There is hope in the darkest times
If I get to, I will tell you
You don’t need to be afraid to
Kill the lights in the room, you’re shining
There is hope in the darkest times
If I get to, I will tell you
You don’t need to be afraid to
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
In a smalltown where dreams die
Looks:
It’s not about looks
Since as you know, I never saw your face
But sometimes feelings are served
Even if we don’t want to feed them
The sad thing is
That I see the light, you are
When you don’t
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