Dear Anxiety by BLÜ EYES

I hope it’s okay that I’m not writing a holiday-related post, although I can link it if I want to. I have been trying to say the word I’m going to for a while, and I just couldn’t. Even in sessions, I forget to talk about this, and in all honesty, I went to talk to strangers to avoid writing about this, but now it’s time to face the music literally, because this song brought my emotions to the surface, which shocked me.

I was waiting for a “therapy” session, and I thought it was a good idea to relax, but it turned out to be a meh idea because it added more to what I had to the point that I forgot to talk about it. The subject is friends and anxiety, as the title suggests Dear Anxiety by BLÜ EYES. Not that long ago, I lost a friend and co-worker and in the lyrics of talks about how anxiety is a friend who you don’t want, but it still doesn’t leave.   

Especially in my teenage years, my mum used to tell me that I idolised my friends, but I don’t think it was the case. I wanted someone I could trust, but when I trusted them, it always was spanned against me. Weirdly, now I get that kind of anxiety when someone I have been talking to for a while stops speaking to me all of a sudden, because I start to blame myself, even if I know there are a lot of what-ifs and reasons behind their leaving, which I might never know.

Dear Anxiety Lyrics:

Dear anxiety, I see you

Feel you filling the space in my chest

Dear anxiety, I hear you

Screaming and trying to protect me

But you don’t have to worry

I promise that I’m safe

We don’t need to shut this body down or try to run away

I promise we’re okay

So I’ll just sit here with you a while and watch as you fade away

Hmm

Dear anxiety, I know you

Better than I know most of my friends

‘Cause you were there with me at my lowest

You were there when I didn’t think that I was good enough

When I watched my whole life come undone

But now you don’t have to worry, no

I promise that I’m safe

We don’t need to shut this body down or try to run away

I promise we’re okay

So I’ll just sit here with you a while and watch as you fade away

Until next time

‘Cause this is for life

This thing you and I

We’ve got together

And I’ll be honest

My world feels darkest

When you’re around

But still I try

Dear anxiety, I love you

I hope you know that I really mean that                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        

My Face

When we started chatting

You asked questions

Which I answer honestly

Giving you pieces of me

You picture me out of your assumptions

You played like a game of cards

And when reality is shown

You are gone as if

Anything was shared                             

Alex