Għażliet – Dario Bezzina ft. Żeppi l-Muni

I’ve been on brand since yesterday. I listened to and read seven books in one day, but posting or looking at emails was out of the question. My hands hurt pretty bad; in fact, I’m writing this on my phone. I said before, and I will repeat it, how grateful I am for books. Mental health-wise, I have been feeling weird. I’m not depressed, but something is out of place.

Picture this: a room full of vibes, most of which are negative, no matter how much I try to keep my positive ones up. Others seem to go over me.  As much as I can sense it, it isn’t easy talking about it. I depend on human interaction online more than I like. When meeting new people, they naturally ask to see what you look like, if not something else, but not going there. 99.9% of the time, I get blocked or ghosted after seconds of that photo being seen, no matter all the conversation we had before that. There are two reasons for this: I’m not their cup of tea look-wise, which I get.

The other reason is the painful one for me. Some people view me as too masculine passing to be a trans guy, so they think I’m a cis guy chasing on trans people, which is very harmful to the trans community. The song I picked today has a more traditional sound to it, and the lyrics are in Maltese. Għażliet – Dario Bezzina ft. Żeppi l-Muni talks about how everyone has the right to make their own choice to be who they are meant to be

Għażliet – Dario Bezzina ft. Żeppi l-Muni  Lyrics:

I have the right to choose what matters to me

Għandi dritt li nagħżel x’jgħodd għalija

My choice, how I live my life over time

Għażla tiegħi, kif ħajti ngħix maż-żmien

Now I understand, and I will not keep it inside me

Issa fhimt, u mhux se nżomm ġo fija

Liberated, because I am proud who am I? I wasted time

Liberat, għax kburi jien min jien

What people say, it was the measure

I was careful

Kemm imxejt, f’toroq twal mudlama

In every action, a heavy shadow

Fejn ma wasalt imkien

I was not happy

Illum ninduna kemm ħlejt żmien

Chorus: Dario Bezzina

X’jgħidu n-nies, kien il-qies

I have a right to choose what matters to me

Qgħadt attent

My choice, how I live my life over time

F’kull għemil, delli tqil

Now I understand, and I will not keep it inside me

Ma kontx kuntent

Liberated, because I am proud who am I

Għandi dritt li nagħżel x’jgħodd għalija

I can’t bear to blame myself

Għażla tiegħi, kif ħajti ngħix maż-żmien

Here from this cliff

Issa fhimt, u mhux se nżomm ġo fija

Today, I decided to wake up

Liberat, għax kburi jien min jien

No one finds you, no one is near

Time has passed

Ma niflaħx inwaħħal fija nnifsi

The falls, the hurts

Hawn minn dan l-irdum

I felt them myself

Illum, iddeċidejt li nqum

Chorus: Dario Bezzina

Ħadd ma ssib, ħadd mhu qrib

I have right to choose what matters to me

Għadda ż-żmien

My choice, how I live my life with time

Il-waqgħat, il-weġgħat

Now I understand, and I will not keep it inside me

Ħassejthom jien

Liberated, because I am proud of who I am

Għandi dritt li nagħżel x’jgħodd għalija

I found the voice in this silence

Għażla tiegħi, kif ħajti ngħix maż-żmien

The black cloud seems to have passed

Issa fhimt, u mhux se nżomm ġo fija

I was born again

Liberat, għax kburi jien min jien

Because in my choices there is no confusion

I got everything I want

Il-vuċi sibt ġo dan is-skiet

Is-sħaba sеwda donnha għaddiet

I have a right to choose what matters to me

Twelidt mill-ġdid

My choice, how I live my life with time

Għax fl-għażliet tiеgħi m’hemmx taħwid

Now I understand , and I will not keep it inside me

Sibt kulma rrid

Liberated, because I am proud of who I am

Għandi dritt li nagħżel x’jgħodd għalija

I have a right to choose what counts for me ( I have a right, my right )

Għażla tiegħi, kif ħajti ngħix maż-żmien

My choice, how I live my life over time ( Now I understand, I’m proud of who I am )

Issa fhimt, u mhux se nżomm ġo fija

Now I understand, and I will not keep it inside me

Liberat, għax kburi jien min jien

Liberated, because I am proud of who I am ( Liberated, I am who I am! )