Scene

Image from Pixabay There is this sceneFrom a day of my lifeThat keeps coming to mindIt was me trying to do homeworkOn the kitchen tableWith my parents cooking dinnerWhich is rareSo, when I’m anxiousI make my mindTime travel to that sceneAs my source of calmness Alex

Not As Simple As Eating….

When that voice Enters your mind Acting like your best friend Injecting self-hate And depression in you Telling you That if you want To feel that you have Any kind of worth You need to do this and that When you try to remove that voice Will fight you But if you ask for help … Continue reading Not As Simple As Eating…. →

My First Hike In Years

As I wrote in the Childhood Rambling post, I spent most of my weekends as a kid at my aunt. After lunch, my uncle, her brother, would lift me to his car and take us places where we could walk and hike. All we took was water. We would walk or in my case wheel. … Continue reading My First Hike In Years →

Off The Topic Thursdays/ My Trans Brain

Every morning I wake up With puppy kisses Which makes me smile But then My dysphoric mind Wakes up too And it starts to hear My high voice And going on to think About my chest But luckily with a chest binder Gives me the strength To fight this battle For yet another Day

Off The Topic Thursdays/ Fake Smile

I have To fake smile Since The pain In my mind Is Invisible So it’s Something that No one Can see So They don’t Believe me When I Tell him That It’s there. Alex

Blogmas Day 7: Mental Health And The Holidays

My depression during the holidays isn’t something that I talked or been open up about outside of therapy sessions. The reason being it feels that around that the holiday season you’re only allowed to be happy and love yourself and don’t get wrong there is anything wrong with feeling like that. It’s kind of embarrassing … Continue reading Blogmas Day 7: Mental Health And The Holidays →

Mental Health And Transition Update

I don’t really know where to start, so I guess I might as well start from the beginning. A few months, my endocrinologist ordered a bunch of blood tests to see if I still have Polycystic ovary syndrome. (Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a hormonal disorder common among women of reproductive age) And the reason … Continue reading Mental Health And Transition Update →

Mind

They told me to go find My mind But I can’t leave my anxious mind behind When it comes to mental health people are blind Like a monster that likes to hide Making you go in a roadless ride But you’re strong And with needing help, there is no wrong

It’s Not Just Eating

Do you know what’s weird? Posts about my personal life are the hardest to write, be warned that I’ll be talking about one of the most challenging periods in my life and going through my old eating disorder which might trigger people, so you guys know I’m not super comfortable with my body, and if … Continue reading It’s Not Just Eating →

Post Seeing My New Endocrinologist Thoughts

I wasn’t going to post this; in fact, it took me about a month to get the courage to post this. I’m not doing it for pity or for people to feel sorry for me. I’m doing this because it might help someone else and for me to read as time passes. I must say … Continue reading Post Seeing My New Endocrinologist Thoughts →