I’m wondering if I need friends, and with how I’m feeling, I think the answer is yes. I need to explain this one. I had two close friends I would open up with whenever I needed. One of them met a girl who I think will be his future wife, so he decided to put his friends to the side or at least that’s how it feels. I haven’t seen him in person in more than a year. We used to meet or voice call at least once a month.
The last time I spoke to the other friend, they told me they no longer believe in friendships or friends. Which I won’t lie was a blow to me because I considered this person as my brother. The fact that here by myself with my mind having these thoughts doesn’t help the loneliness. Being lonely doesn’t mean I’m depressed in my case, and it means that I’m open to new friends or something. This is a big step because I can be a bit of a loner.
I did try to go on those sites where you can meet strangers but being that I’m trans and a wheelchair user, I tend to attract a few freaks or chasers that only want to see my body or sex—not saying that I’m not weird but people wanting me just for my body is a turn-off and makes me want to run. This post is more to help me process, but asking for new friends won’t hurt me either. Here are my socials where you can find me:
Instagram @alexbookworld24
Snapchat haber96
Discord @ alexjohaber#8466
And, of course, here and email
Alex
P.S. I needed to write this for me and you, in case you are like me; just know that it’s okay and you’re strong.
Mybookworld24 
Found you on Instagram and started following I’m @magpieleclerc I dont post a whole lot but is nice to have another way to stay in touch outside of WordPress
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Yes found you and followed back 🙂
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I’m going to add you on insta and chat. I am not very interesting.
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I added you! I just finished mad honey, and just learned what a chaser is. sorry people are creepers.
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yea
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“they told me they no longer believe in friendships or friends”
WHAT !!!!
You’ve been my friend for more than a year via WP……..
Friends are your chosen family…….
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Yes I know what you mean
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You have to understand that today, in most cases, people’s interests are the most important, and there is very little love. The most important thing is family and someone, if there is one, who is sincere and full of love, someone who is unconditional. There are few of them.
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Alex, I understand your condition very well. Unfortunately, sometimes we lose friends due to age, illnesses, jealousy, radical disagreements and even for strange reasons, like with your friend. I would be glad to communicate with you (by the way, you are a really talented poet!) I also subscribed to your Instagram 🙂 I’m @anna_may_writer there
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If you give a sec I will follow since I need my phone for that
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Friends can be tough! Good people come and go out of your life unexpectedly. You’ll meet new friends, especially if you’re able to connect over books.
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Yes, I agree did you follow me on Instagram by any chance?
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That’s me!
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Messaged you on there
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