In 2017, I came out and literally went under a rock; not only was I being called insane by doctors, but I also lost some people who were constantly in my life for years. Yes, the cherry on top came when I received some nasty comments from people who said they were trans themselves. So, I went into the shadows. Although, when I think about it, starting a blog wasn’t a great way to stay hidden.
A few months ago, a friend of mine told me about a project I would be able to give a hand in. Thinking it would be quick and relatively easy, I said yes. Now that it is over and done with, I can safely say it was everything but quick and easy. Here is a life lesson for you, when your gut tells you something, listen to it.
When the project was getting postponed over and over due to miscommunication and disorganisation, in fact, we were supposed to finish in June, but it was wrapped up in August. There were multiple meetings, but sadly I could only join one due to my work. Something I noticed in that meeting that bothered me a bit was that some assumptions were made about a person who wasn’t there to agree or disagree.
Like, always, I had to have multiple calls to check studio accessibility because it’s an issue that enters one ear and right out the other for some people. The silver lining here is that I met a friend that I hadn’t seen in years due to the pandemic and life. I had pretty bad anxiety that day, and what made it worse was that the questions were in English, and I prepared my answers in English. Last minute they decided that they wanted everything in Maltese.
Now, if you have been following for a while, you know that, sadly, Maltese isn’t my best friend. All I can say is that I tried, and I don’t think I will join another project anytime soon unless I get to have more control over how my story is being told. Of course, all of this is from my point of view and might get me in trouble for posting this. By this time, the podcast should be out so I will link it. However, hearing my voice is cringy and can be triggering, so I won’t be listening to it.