Both Different Yet The Same

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In all honesty, I have been thinking about this post for a few days now, going back and forth about this. I guess by now you know I have decided. At the start of the year, I promised myself that I wouldn’t be silenced about my transition or my disability. Being in the closet and dealing with inaccessible daily, posts like this helped me keep going. If trans talk isn’t your cup of tea, you can skip this one.

Every gender clinic visit brings with it anxiety since I never know how my body is acting. Adding to it, they changed the location, and it’s not the most accessible place. I know that not a ton of wheelchair users visit that clinic, but it still made my blood boil. I thought I was on the waiting list for top surgery, but apparently, my name slipped through the system, so all the time and money I spent went down the drain, and I have to start all over again.

Wait for it because it did get worse to re-get assessed I have to wait until 2023 now because they are fully booked. The doctor did ask why I don’t do it privately, and I did answer that question before here. Since I have Cerebral Palsy, I become a high-risk patient, and if my heart stops, they don’t have the equipment to restart it. When I was in therapy, my psychologist asked if I would still go ahead with surgery, knowing the risks? My answer was and is yes because there is no one I can be than myself.

Alex

13 thoughts on “Both Different Yet The Same

  1. I am wishing you all the best. As you know in the long run no ones else’s opinion matters. Your body,your mind,your choice your happiness. What makes you feel like the real you is the most important thing!!

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  2. Every step we take in this life, is a risk.
    You take the risk only when you “feel” it’s the right decision. That right moves us forward.
    Alex, best wishes and lots of love going your way.

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