Before I start today’s post, I want to share a little dream I had a few nights ago. I was at a trans event, and I saw Alex Bertie and Jake Edwards, two trans guys I followed pre-transition, and I was rooting for them because two were a couple at the time, and I dreamt that I met them at this event.
Anyway, it ties with today’s post because it has been exactly a year that I started hormones. I don’t know what the time as went. I try not to compare my transition to others since I believe that path and body is different. However, I know I had to wait longer to begin hormones due to liver issues.
The day I was given the go-ahead to start, I told my endocrinologist I couldn’t believe it was real just yet. The testosterone that the government provides trans with is enanthate, and we started with half a vial to see how my body dealt with it. Sadly, I still had a cycle with the first half dose, and I won’t lie, that broke me mentally.
Although, by the second injection, my body settled, and I hadn’t had a cycle since. The first thing I noticed was my face getting slightly leaner and my friends telling me that my voice was changing. Now, I have triple the body hair I had; I think I might have a bit more muscle. I have primarily under my chin when it comes to facial hair, and it’s starting to grow on the side’s areas.
The most significant change I felt and still am feeling is mental health-wise; it’s the only thing that helps my anxiety and dysphoria. To the point that on psychiatrist advice, I was able to reduce my anxiety medication. If you have any questions on the topic, I will try to answer them as best as I can.